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Kehilangan...

And it all ended...

...on 16 November 2007 with an sms.

God, it hurts!

It all started...

...on 25 July 2007 with a message in my MySpace Inbox.

"Hai.. manis senyum tu"

I browsed through his profile and I thought, hmmm not bad.

"mekasihhhh..
mmmm cute gak :)
kat maner?"

"sesamer..
aku kat putrajaya..
tgh keje.
sambil2 tu check myspace..
ni ym aku [*****]
senang2 add ya..
erm..panggil jer aku hazri"

"jauh gak ek. duduk maner plak?
aku dah add kat YM. my id [*****]@yahoo.com
call me Yus."

"mane ade jauh.
duk kat seri kembangan..
thanks ya.."

And we chatted on YM after that. We exchanged phone numbers.. and somehow we had supper that weekend at Pandan Indah.

"Man, he is much better looking in person. The photos in his MySpace do not do him justice," I thought to myself. It was pretty hard to get my eyes off him.

Small talks and chats aside, we ended up at my place as he agreed to give me a massage after I complained about my sore back. How very nice of him, I thought. It was a bit embarrassing though because he managed to get me down in my brief in short order on our first date.

Okay, so I did worse on some of my other first dates but somehow this one was different.

Everything just clicked.